I'm Truly Sorry

From your eyes, I might not care of my friends. Believe me, I do really care of all my friends either they close or not. Among all of my friends, I thought you've known me well, I guess I'm wrong. It's really hurt me inside. I'm being very honest right now. I feel like crying, like someone is stabbing me inside and so on. It is really my fault? Well, I cant control my feelings. Its not I can force myself from not being sad of those words. I'm sorry, I'm disapointing you.
End of the story

Am I being to much? I'm just joking . That's it. Its just a small thing and I know that what you've said to me was meant for a joke but why I think I'm at the fault? Am I being that harsh to you? Am I? I just don't know what to do now.
End of the story